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13 July So much going on...It has been such a long time since I've done an entry in here, I thought today would be a great day to update!
My mom is back in the hospital. She had an unexpected triple bypass in March of this year. She's only 52! We have a very extensive heart history in our family. On Monday, she had chest pain and shortness of breath and ended up in emergency where they gave her a shot of nitro and oxygen. She felt better after the meds. They admitted her for observation on the cardiac floor. She was doing really good Tuesday and Wednesday and then this morning, she had another episode. She was waiting for them to do another Angiogram to see if there are any blockages. It could just be the artery spasming, which they told us after her surgery could happen.
My husband and I are still trying to get pregnant. It's now month 55. It's been such a long battle, stressful and emotional. Everything we are doing now is out of pocket. Our OHIP does not cover the procedures and our drug plans don't cover the meds. We're taking things a month at a time and of course wishing upon stars!
I have 36 hours of work left (three 12 hour day shifts starting tomorrow) and then I am off for 7 full days. Of course, I'll be heading up north. My mom should be out of the hospital by then and will be there as well recouping! My dad won't be up there with us, but I can take care of my mom while he is away. I had told my husband that my dad wouldn't be up there, and that if wanted to cancel some of his holiday days, I would understand. My husband and my dad golf together and fish in the evenings together. I didn't want my husband to get bored, as he doesn't like to just sit around. He cancelled the entire week. I'm upset about it as it's supposed to be our week together, but I understand his reasons. But it still makes me sad that we won't have a nice week together.
Well, that's about it. There's a lot going on and I definately need a vacation. So, the count down begins.
Happy summer everyone!
Lisa 20 December Letter from SantaI wrote a letter to Santa this year. I asked him for some Christmas magic in hopes that my husband and I be blessed with Children. I was surprised when I went to my mailbox today and there was a letter back from him. It was a form letter with a personal message on the bottom. Merry Christmas ~ there is always reasons to believe!
Cheers, Lisa 19 October I'm jelous and it hurtsI am jelous, plain and simple. My sister in law, who is my best friend, had a baby 2 months ago. A beautiful baby boy named Joshua. He is perfect. She had a few losses before she became pregnant with her son. I know how much heart ache she suffered just trying to get pregnant and stay pregnant. I'm jelous of her, her husband, her family.
My husband and I have been trying for 35 months, almost 3 years. It's been such a long battle and nothing. I've had countless tests, surgery, medications and am going back to see my fertility doctor on November 2nd to get the information on starting IUI (Intrauterine Insemination). It'll be costly because drug plans don't cover the cost of fertility treatments.
I spent the day today with my sister in law and baby and I held him in my arms, fed him and watched him fall into a peaceful sleep in my arms. His head against my cheek and his fingers holding onto mine. I want that. I want to do that everyday. I want to wake up in the morning and have a little one of my own that I can love and watch grow up. She is so very lucky to have Joshua.
I know it'll happen one day and I should just be patient, but I'm tired of waiting. I'm tired of every month knowing that I'm not going to be a mother. I feel like I am failing as a wife and as a woman. I'm the reason for the infertility and it is so hard knowing that something that is supposed to be so natural is so difficult for me.
For now, I just enjoy the time I get to spend with my nephew. He is precious and I love him to death. I make a great aunt, so I know one day I'll make an even better mother.
17 October I can't believe he forgotMy wonderful, loving husband FORGOT that today was our 7 year wedding anniversary.
 I know, shocking, isn't it! He thought it was coming up but didn't realize that today was THE day. I am going to make him pay dearly for this error. For starters, a nice dinner on Thursday and I'll start giving him some gift ideas to go along with dinner. I'm ok with him forgetting, as it happens, and we have both been very busy over the past week with home repairs and the start of hockey season. But he will have a lot to do to make it up to me!!!!Cheers, Lisa
14 October Still off work.....Well, I saw the doctor yesterday and I'm still off work. I thought for sure that he would give me clearance to go back next week, seeing as I have been off for two weeks already. He has taken me off for next week as well. At least the R&R is doing me some good. I should be very well rested by the time I go back to work! I miss my job though. It's nice having time off, but I'm itching to get back!
Cheers for now!
8 October Thanksgiving WeekendIt is Thanksgiving weekend and all through my house, no one was stiring cause everyone deserted me...LOL! My family (mom, dad and husband) have all gone up to the trailer to close it for the season and I had to stay home due to a nasty chest infection. The good thing is, I have tons of books to read and tons of stuff I can do to keep me busy. Plus, I plan to do a lot of R&R in hopes to beat this infection out of me.
Other than that, things are good. I will be celebrating Thanksgiving with my family when they return Monday. We will be having roast beef and Yorkshire pudding as they will all be having Turkey up North and don't want to be turkey'd out. I'm incharge of dessert and I've decided to make Wild Blueberry Grunt. It's Blueberry sauce and spiced dumplings. Very tasty. Of course, I'll also have a pumpkin pie on hand because what's Thanksgiving dinner without a pumpkin pie!
Well, this girl has a trashy romance novel calling her name so off I go. To all of my fellow Canadian Friends - HAPPY THANKSGIVING!
6 October Saw the DR yesterdayWell, I saw the doctor yesterday and I don't have a cold! I have something much worse, a severe bronchial infection. Yup, I'm actually sick! He even told me that I am a very sick girl right now and if I don't take the meds as prescribed I could end up in serious condition in the ER. So, I am following his orders to a tee! I hate being sick. I have to sleep on the couch as I can't sleep flat on my back and my own breathing is keeping me awake. I'm off of work for the week. He wants to see me every 48 hours right now to make sure the steroids he has prescribed are working. Got to love being on steroids. I hate them! I work so hard at loosing weight and then end up on a heavy dosage of Prednisone (steroid). Oh well, I have to take whatever I can to get better cause I sure hate feeling like this.
It doesn't help either knowing that my mom, dad and Husband will all be away for the Thanksgiving long weekend and I have to stay at home. It is closing weekend at our summer place and it is too damp up there at night time and not a good place for me to be when sick. So they all leave tomorrow after work and I won't see them until sometime Monday night. I'm supposed to cook a Thanksgiving dinner for all of them for Monday but at the rate I'm going, they'll be lucky if I get out of bed. My sister in law invited me to her place for dinner but if I feel like this, I can't go. She has a new baby at home and her 97 year old grandmother will be there, so I can't take the chance of passing this along.
I'm just feeling sorry for myself because I just feel so rotten right now. Oh well, guess it's time to make another cup of tea and curl up on the couch with my trashy romance novel.
Cheers, Lisa
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